HI everyone - thank you for your hugs. I was able to buy myself some more time yesterday and MAYBE stay where I am for a couple of years of more. I know a lot of you have started some private conversations with me. I am exhausted. Emotionally and physically. It may take me a couple of days to get through to all of them. It is difficult for me to think about which birds I want to give up. Just when I think...oh I can let that one go...that's the one that will say "hi" to me or open their wings and play "big bird" with me for a while, or call for me when I leave the room. Animals and birds just know when their caretaker is stressed.
I did find a place that if/when it becomes available will be willing to take all my animals and birds. However, right now nothing is available at the two places that I have looked (55+) that falls into that category. Plus I don't know how much it will cost me.
I just want to rest for a few days or so before I have to start planning what to do next.