I have to move...therefore I have to downsize my flock.

[greys4u]

 

[Chopper]

How are your cats around birds?

My cats have a hate and an I don't care attitude around them. They kind of roll their eyes at them.

 

[Chopper]

All - I'm meeting with a lawyer this morning so I will be back on line later. I've been in this home over 19 years it is hard. A LOT of stuff to throw out. I haven't dealt with the emotions yet because I'm numb.

 

[Greycloud]

 

[avianantics]

I am so sorry. Sometimes rescues will foster until a person's situation changes. Would this perhaps be a possibility for you?

 

[alcmene]

So sorry you're going through this. What kind of eclectus are they?

@Bartleby (just making sure you're aware of this thread )

 

[momazon]

I, too, lived in a large home when we acquired the animals and due to similar circumstances have had to rent for the last few years. It has been very difficult. You have my sympathy best wishes to find a place that will allow your animals

 

[Jocund^eternal]

I'm so sorry for this

 

[Lady Jane]

Mary Lynn you know I live in Maryland too. I know this must be beyond stressful for you. Hugs and please know you can call me any time if you need a friendly ear.

 

[faeryphoebe1]

I'm so sorry.

(((hugs)))

 

[Chopper]

HI everyone - thank you for your hugs. I was able to buy myself some more time yesterday and MAYBE stay where I am for a couple of years of more. I know a lot of you have started some private conversations with me. I am exhausted. Emotionally and physically. It may take me a couple of days to get through to all of them. It is difficult for me to think about which birds I want to give up. Just when I think...oh I can let that one go...that's the one that will say "hi" to me or open their wings and play "big bird" with me for a while, or call for me when I leave the room. Animals and birds just know when their caretaker is stressed.
I did find a place that if/when it becomes available will be willing to take all my animals and birds. However, right now nothing is available at the two places that I have looked (55+) that falls into that category. Plus I don't know how much it will cost me.

I just want to rest for a few days or so before I have to start planning what to do next.

 

[webchirp]

 

[Clueless]

More time is always good.

Hang in there

 

[jeme3]

More time is good.

Take care of yourself first, then you'll be able to make good decisions.

 

[Chopper]

I know I have to take care of myself right now because if I don't I will be so sick and won't be able to do much of anything for several months.
That has been part of the problem in the last 1 1/2 years. I would pack boxes for a while and look for a location to move to and then I would get sick. Then I wouldn't be able to do anything for a long time. It was a horrible cycle to go through and no one really understood. I know the last week or so I have just been going on how to get through to today. Now that I'm here...I'm tired. :straightface:

 

[greys4u]

Rest, not just your body but your mind. Turn off your brain so you can have happy thoughts, get off the computer about an hour before you go to bed, listen to soothing music, do you have a sleep mask or a white noise machine? get yourself off that ferris wheel for awhile, have some me time, you deserve it.....

 

[Lady Jane]

Rest is very important for you now. The last time I moved (one year ago) I ended up in the hospital from exhaustion and pneumonia.

 

[Chopper]

Rest is very important for you now. The last time I moved (one year ago) I ended up in the hospital from exhaustion and pneumonia.

Well, I don't want to do that. How awful. Yes, I know rest is important but I have been in the - go - go - go - mode for several weeks now that I'm having a hard time slowing myself down. I will though.
I calm myself down at night by praying. It works for me.
Ferris wheel - yep just going round and round.

I have to laugh though. A couple of weeks ago (maybe more) I was complaining that I didn't have anything to search CL for. Now I'm searching for an apartment. If it's not one thing it is another.

 

[SueA555]

I lost my home too. It was horrible. Now I'm in a one-bedroom apartment. I only have Joey, so that wasn't a problem.

Good luck to you! I hope you find good homes for your birds, and that your life gets better.

 

[noblemacaw]

In April I moved three states away for a job because I had no opportunities at home and was 2 months from becoming homeless. I lost my house had to sell and donate belongings I did not wish to part with and had to place my dog and cat. My ex took Julio but took him back to the rescue. My heart goes out to you because I know what it feels like to suffer what you are going through

So much loss is experienced. It is like the grieving process never ends. I miss my home my family my companions. I had to start over in every aspect in my life. On top of all this loss and change forced on me I'm still trying to deal with the fact I had to abandon my mother's beautiful hutch. It is like having to leave it behind wraps up all the loss I experience

I know in my head I am in a better place and have been given the chance to start over. I'm very grateful for this reboot however the sadness still remains and things seem so much more difficult when you are alone

My heart goes out to you because I understand. I pray things work out for you that it will get better