We're always here, whenever you need... Sending you loving thoughtsIt has been 3 months now. I don't cry as often. I wanted to post earlier but I knew I would tear up. My therapist told me its ok to still talk to him. I am doing better, but sometimes I get caught off guard and will tear up. I put his bell back in his cage. When I bump into it, when I open the curtains in the morning and close them at night it gives me comfort.
I still get angry, he should not have been taken away from me so soon.
People don't realize all my life I've had birds, then children starting at age 20, now I'm 63 and no children, no parrot. The silence makes me crazy sometimes.
I didn't realize I took so many photos of him with my cell phone, he shows up on my memories on my FB page and I have downloaded them. I'm a photography by hobby but he was terrified of my big Canon.
I try to listen to songs on You Tube but once in a while his favorites pop up.
I am forever grateful for the support I have received from each of you.
One day I will have another parrot, just not today.
Actually when I close the curtains, or maybe its him, when I hear the tinkle of his cylindrical bell it now gives me comfort. I have reduced talking to him at sometimes. They say time will heal your pain. I will just have to be patient with myself. Thank you for your kind words.I'm so sorry Terri. It's just heartbreaking.
If it were me I might want to put away the cage. From personal experience my sister passed away a year ago and I had the pillow that she used during chemo on my bed. Honestly it ruined every morning til I finally packed it away. I think of her all the time but somehow seeing the pillow just was too much.