I'm so very sorry for your loss.
I and many of us on here know that terribly painful grief when we lose our little feathered friends. The grief comes in waves. One day the pain will have the edge off, the next day it is back. It will probably be like this for a long time.
Just try to remember that he had a wonderful life with you. Yes, it was short, but I imagine the love you gave him was so much more than a lot of birds get in a lifetime. Frutti knew how much you loved him.
Also, it helps to write down everything we remember about them.
I am thinking of you at this sad time.
'Memories are a golden chain that joins us til we meet again.'