Today marks two weeks since he's passed away.
I had initially told a handful of people, my closest bird friends. I put it on my IG, since there aren't many people I personally know on there, and a few days later made a blog post, again since I don't personally know many people who read my blog. I had refrained from telling people on my FB and here until now. While I'm not sure exactly why, I think part of it may be because I just didn't want to deal with the barrage of condolences at the time. I just needed time to myself. I'm still not sure I'm ready...
I actually try to avoid this section of the forum. It's not that I'm insensitive to those who have lost a bird/family member but I just don't like seeing bird after bird go, leaving broken hearts behind. It was also hard because I struggled with Mika's mortality for years. Ever since his immune system became compromised thoughts of his death would randomly pop into my head and I'd cry hysterically. After he turned 10, the somewhat "middle age" for lovebirds, it became more and more frequent. I don't think I went an entire week without randomly crying once over his probable shorter lifespan ever since.
And now he's gone. Necropsy showed his kidney was swollen and had acute hemorrhaging so the vet said he probably died from a stroke. I got him cremated and he's now waiting for his resting place to arrive in the mail.
In these past couple of weeks, I've had the wonderful support of the friends I've never met and Ming sent me a beautiful bouquet of flowers and a bracelet with Mika's initial on it. Again, thank you so much, Ming. I still haven't been able to read the entire poem that was in the card. Maybe once I'm over my grief...
I loved Mika more than anything on this earth. Words can't describe how much I'll miss him.
I had initially told a handful of people, my closest bird friends. I put it on my IG, since there aren't many people I personally know on there, and a few days later made a blog post, again since I don't personally know many people who read my blog. I had refrained from telling people on my FB and here until now. While I'm not sure exactly why, I think part of it may be because I just didn't want to deal with the barrage of condolences at the time. I just needed time to myself. I'm still not sure I'm ready...
I actually try to avoid this section of the forum. It's not that I'm insensitive to those who have lost a bird/family member but I just don't like seeing bird after bird go, leaving broken hearts behind. It was also hard because I struggled with Mika's mortality for years. Ever since his immune system became compromised thoughts of his death would randomly pop into my head and I'd cry hysterically. After he turned 10, the somewhat "middle age" for lovebirds, it became more and more frequent. I don't think I went an entire week without randomly crying once over his probable shorter lifespan ever since.
And now he's gone. Necropsy showed his kidney was swollen and had acute hemorrhaging so the vet said he probably died from a stroke. I got him cremated and he's now waiting for his resting place to arrive in the mail.
In these past couple of weeks, I've had the wonderful support of the friends I've never met and Ming sent me a beautiful bouquet of flowers and a bracelet with Mika's initial on it. Again, thank you so much, Ming. I still haven't been able to read the entire poem that was in the card. Maybe once I'm over my grief...
I loved Mika more than anything on this earth. Words can't describe how much I'll miss him.
I'm so very sorry for your loss, Maya. Mika was one of those little faces here on the avenue that I always loved to see. His little face always brought a smile to mine.
I hoped you guys would have many more years together. Fly free sweet Mika! 
