Yesterday was 1 month ago since I lost Eloy. And I never thought that I really could manage without him.
I removed the candle lantern, and placed a beautiful rock that I found in the forest on his grave.
So sad not to light a candle for him every night, but I will put some flowers and blueberry plants their instead.
I'm so tired of crying and missing him so badly, all I want is to get him back. I don't want those tears but I'm sure of that if this is right:
If tears could build a stairway, and heartache make a lane,
I'd walk the path to heaven and bring you back again."
Then he soon will be home again!
Miss you so much darling!