I had Chaz cremated and his remains returned home last night. I put him in with Chico, in the same urn. This is where he was meant to go. It was very hard and I cried the whole time doing it. I cried for my loss of Chaz, I cried for my loss of Chico, I cried for them leaving this world so soon and I cried because I am happy they are now together forever.
I know I shouldn't but I continue to blame myself for bringing Yori into my home. If I had not done that, my Chaz would still be alive.
I am getting a plate done up for the urn. It says Chico with birth and death and underneath "my sweet little man" that is what I used to call him. Then Chaz's name, his dates and "my chazmanian devil" that is what he was and fit the bill perfectly. Then underneath both of their names I am having engraved, "together forever".