Discussion in 'Vasa Vista' started by iamwhoiam, 5/25/19.
Hope all is well with them. Seems as if Brittany hasn't posted for a while.
She hasnt, I was thinking about her last nite
I don't like this... She left right in he middle of a thread. I really hope she's okay.
I just sent her a conversation so hope to hear soon
Huh, I was thinking about them too.
Haven't heard anything yet, will keep watching the conversation and hopefully she will replie
She was on two days ago.
That's a relief.
Hello again, We are doing alright, Java better than me. He's still very much hormonal and vocal about it but still in good spirits otherwise.
As for me, not doing so well. I'm in a downward spiral that therapy isn't helping with. I've searched for multiple outlets to find my happy place, but it isn't there. I'm numb, hopeless, and don't even have the energy to cry anymore. I didn't think I'd be gone this long or at all, but finding a smile is rare these days. I didn't want to taint someone else's day so I took a step back. Even now, I'm a mess and I'm not sure where to go from here. Nonetheless, Java is doing well and in good health. He's begun moving around his cage a bit more. He still spooks very easily but I'm able to catch it most days and calm him down before he can attempt flight and hurt himself. I hope everyone is doing well and I truly appreciate everyone for thinking of us. I'm hoping this wave of depression mellows out sooner than later so I can find happy thoughts, but until then, I've been silent.
Have you talked to a therapist? I don;t like taking them but sometimes a RX can get you back on the right road & help ease you back...Hoping you see your way out of the fog...
I'm so sorry, Brittany. Depression is a leech with steel armour. I know the emptiness and anhedonia that festers inside in the worst of downward falls, and kind words may not seem like much, but please know that we will always be here for you. You've been a ray of light and warmth for so many, and we won't leave you in your darkest days. Take all the rest you need, and always remember how truly amazing you are.
You can always talk with us as far as you want as I think just having someone willing to listen and help hash things out will help you or anyone else buried in the pits of depression. I've been there before and it's a deep dark place but I slowly worked out of it in my own way back when when I was real young. Take care of yourself and get whatever help you need and talk to us if you want to
Lots of hugs to you again!
I know how much you are loved here, please always remember that we are all here for you and that we are a kind of family that will always be there for you when you don’t feel like being alone.
I'm glad you are here, Brittany. I know depression well, the black dragon lurking over your shoulder, overseeing your destruction. It's a real -----. I'm so sorry you are tangling with the beast that is depression. We are here for you.
Java will be feeling sad to see you so unhappy and both of you need for you to laugh. I've got lots of hilarious films. The funniest is the 'bull falling into the tunnel' of Paint your Wagon. More very funny films are Club Paradise, Cheech & Chong's Up in Smoke, Bruce and Lloyd Out of Control, Footrot Flats The Dog's Tale (cartoon). The worse I feel the more I need to laugh. Java really needs to see and hear you laughing. I'm sure other members here will have lots of suggestions for funny films too. Also "the Mouse" episode of Married with Children always had me in hysterics. I've personally struggled with depression for nearly fourty years and I know how bad it can get. Many overdoses, slashed wrists, taken wicked poison. I know you will be struggling on for Java and having him around will be keeping you from doing those stupid things I've done too many times. Do you have anyone that can come over daily to check on you, make sure you eat something, listen to anything you wish to talk about. Java loves and cares about you but he can't ring 911 when you do anything stupid like what I've done in the past.
There will always be someone to talk to here on the forum. Many people care for you and will be here for you.
Sending you some love and a hug ❤️
Nice to hear Java is well ❤️
So, so glad to hear from you. A few years ago when my marriage was in a bad place, my shrink suggested yoga 'which will keep your mind occupied' As others have said stay in touch with us, we are here for YOU and JAVA
Aww Brittany, I feel so badly for you and don't know what I can do to help you. I'm sorry. Just clone to Java - you love and depend on each other.
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