Maybe some day in the distant future, but that is between you, your boyfriend, and Raptor. Absolutely it's understandable how you feel right now and no one should question your decision should you choose to remain a one bird home.
Also, is there any chance Rappy is picking up on your grief and trying to make this painful time any easier for you? Consoling you in his own Raptor way? They are super intuitive, he could tell you are upset. I know he'll never fill the hole that's been torn in your heart but I hope he can give you some smiles in this hard time.
I'm just... I don't know what to say. We all miss your little ball of cotton.