I'm so sorry, Brittany. Depression is a leech with steel armour. I know the emptiness and anhedonia that festers inside in the worst of downward falls, and kind words may not seem like much, but please know that we will always be here for you. You've been a ray of light and warmth for so many, and we won't leave you in your darkest days. Take all the rest you need, and always remember how truly amazing you are.Hello again, We are doing alright, Java better than me. He's still very much hormonal and vocal about it but still in good spirits otherwise.
As for me, not doing so well. I'm in a downward spiral that therapy isn't helping with. I've searched for multiple outlets to find my happy place, but it isn't there. I'm numb, hopeless, and don't even have the energy to cry anymore. I didn't think I'd be gone this long or at all, but finding a smile is rare these days. I didn't want to taint someone else's day so I took a step back. Even now, I'm a mess and I'm not sure where to go from here. Nonetheless, Java is doing well and in good health. He's begun moving around his cage a bit more. He still spooks very easily but I'm able to catch it most days and calm him down before he can attempt flight and hurt himself. I hope everyone is doing well and I truly appreciate everyone for thinking of us. I'm hoping this wave of depression mellows out sooner than later so I can find happy thoughts, but until then, I've been silent.