rickythebi
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This is a long thread, I’m sorry.
I’m not sure how much detail you guys would like (and I’m probably giving way too much detail), but I think I really need someone else's perspective on this situation and what would be best for my bird as I truly love him with my entire being. I currently have a 7 year old lesser sulfur crested cockatoo named Ricky. But he is not happy and he does not enjoy this life he has that I have given him or will be able to give him for the next few years. For backstory, Ricky was purchased from a bird store at around 1 years old (didn’t have his hatch date). If I knew what I know now about these stores and what they promote I would have never bought him. Especially that I was totally unprepared for the things that would happen in my future and utterly failed to factor Ricky into the equation and I fully take the blame for this.
At the time I was only around 16 years old and my mom had been diagnosed with Huntington’s Disease the year before. In what I feel was guilt, my dad bought the first pet that I really truly wanted since that situation. We already had a green cheek conure and a budgie and this lesser sulfur crested cockatoo at the pet store had bonded with my family and I over multiple trips. I really wish someone at the pet store had realized what an idiot I was and told us, but of course all they see is the money. I am the most angry at myself, if I could I would go back in time and beat myself up for not thinking about his future. Pretty soon I graduated from high school and went to college. My family took care of Ricky and really enjoyed his presence and I would always come back on weekends and over summer, winter, and spring breaks to spend time with him.
However, he started to display behavioral issues. He started to refuse to step up around 4 years ago and has refused every attempt to get him on our hands despite how tempting the treat is. As of now, he is restricted to only his cage (top play area + his toys inside) and where he feels safe climbing down from his cage and walking on the floor because of our inability to handle him. We have worked with him on this and compromise by placing his toys and foraging activities on the top of his cage, as well as his favorite spots to play on the floor.
He began plucking in bursts (where he would start plucking and then stop and become fully feathered) around 3 years ago and his vet says that he most likely will do this for the rest of his life. While he hasn’t been extremely bonded with anyone in the house (he tends to equally enjoy everyone else), he does seem to prefer my mom and has become agitated around her and overprotective when anyone gets near her in the recent year.
Right now, I have graduated college and I am currently working and living in a condo with roommates as it’s what I can afford right now. My living situation is not ideal for Ricky (or even me, my landlady's son is living in the garage and he is temperamental). Ricky is currently living at our main house while my mom cares for him.
Unfortunately, my mom’s mental health has begun to decline due to her disease. She has filed for divorce from my dad and so my dad has had to leave the house and is living in a condo with my other siblings and the other birds. My family is very disjointed and I’m beginning to fear Ricky is stuck in the middle. He has begun to pluck again (he was completely feathered before) and seems unhappy with all that is happening.
My future plan is to go to grad school, but I feel so much guilt thinking about Ricky’s future. While my dad has professed his ability to care for Ricky while I’m in grad school, I fear what might happen if my mom’s mental and physical state gets worse as we will have to figure out her long term care. I feel like it’s cruel of me to expect him to be happy and content with me taking him to a small condo or apartment or even whatever I could afford after grad school. He would only be given attention in the afternoon as I would need to work long hours for years before I could be financially stable enough to stay longer at home with him. He would also be all alone as the other birds are my sister’s. While I know some cockatoos can deal with this, Ricky still has plucking and anxiety with a steady amount of attention most of the day. I have been only thinking how sad he may get with the little amount of attention I will be able to give him. I feel so selfish believing that he would be happy with the future I have in front of me and I truly just want what is best for him. At the same time, I feel like I have failed him because I thought I could deal with all of this and I’m just giving up on him. I did bring him briefly up to my condo for a week, but I quickly had to bring him back home because my anxiety got so bad worrying over him. I’ve been struggling a lot with my mental health (dealing with my mom’s painful and inevitable death is weighing heavily on my entire family). And just thinking about caring for Ricky and trying to establish my career throughout all of this is driving me close to the edge.
I know this may seem like a lot and I feel like a villain, I just feel very lost right now in this situation and I think I really need some help. I have a bird rescue very close to where I live that I can contact (Free Flight Bird Sanctuary in Del Mar, California) and I am fully willing to work for months to find him a good home if the sanctuary can not take him. My family is completely willing to continue to pay for his care at the sanctuary (they require relinquishment fees) and any vet costs. I just want Ricky to be happy and have a more stable future than what is currently in front of him. What do you guys think is more cruel? Giving him to the rescue in hopes that he can find a stable home to live at or I take him after grad school (or even now) and we are both unhappy? I feel like a monster just for having the idea of rehoming him. Please help.
I’m not sure how much detail you guys would like (and I’m probably giving way too much detail), but I think I really need someone else's perspective on this situation and what would be best for my bird as I truly love him with my entire being. I currently have a 7 year old lesser sulfur crested cockatoo named Ricky. But he is not happy and he does not enjoy this life he has that I have given him or will be able to give him for the next few years. For backstory, Ricky was purchased from a bird store at around 1 years old (didn’t have his hatch date). If I knew what I know now about these stores and what they promote I would have never bought him. Especially that I was totally unprepared for the things that would happen in my future and utterly failed to factor Ricky into the equation and I fully take the blame for this.
At the time I was only around 16 years old and my mom had been diagnosed with Huntington’s Disease the year before. In what I feel was guilt, my dad bought the first pet that I really truly wanted since that situation. We already had a green cheek conure and a budgie and this lesser sulfur crested cockatoo at the pet store had bonded with my family and I over multiple trips. I really wish someone at the pet store had realized what an idiot I was and told us, but of course all they see is the money. I am the most angry at myself, if I could I would go back in time and beat myself up for not thinking about his future. Pretty soon I graduated from high school and went to college. My family took care of Ricky and really enjoyed his presence and I would always come back on weekends and over summer, winter, and spring breaks to spend time with him.
However, he started to display behavioral issues. He started to refuse to step up around 4 years ago and has refused every attempt to get him on our hands despite how tempting the treat is. As of now, he is restricted to only his cage (top play area + his toys inside) and where he feels safe climbing down from his cage and walking on the floor because of our inability to handle him. We have worked with him on this and compromise by placing his toys and foraging activities on the top of his cage, as well as his favorite spots to play on the floor.
He began plucking in bursts (where he would start plucking and then stop and become fully feathered) around 3 years ago and his vet says that he most likely will do this for the rest of his life. While he hasn’t been extremely bonded with anyone in the house (he tends to equally enjoy everyone else), he does seem to prefer my mom and has become agitated around her and overprotective when anyone gets near her in the recent year.
Right now, I have graduated college and I am currently working and living in a condo with roommates as it’s what I can afford right now. My living situation is not ideal for Ricky (or even me, my landlady's son is living in the garage and he is temperamental). Ricky is currently living at our main house while my mom cares for him.
Unfortunately, my mom’s mental health has begun to decline due to her disease. She has filed for divorce from my dad and so my dad has had to leave the house and is living in a condo with my other siblings and the other birds. My family is very disjointed and I’m beginning to fear Ricky is stuck in the middle. He has begun to pluck again (he was completely feathered before) and seems unhappy with all that is happening.
My future plan is to go to grad school, but I feel so much guilt thinking about Ricky’s future. While my dad has professed his ability to care for Ricky while I’m in grad school, I fear what might happen if my mom’s mental and physical state gets worse as we will have to figure out her long term care. I feel like it’s cruel of me to expect him to be happy and content with me taking him to a small condo or apartment or even whatever I could afford after grad school. He would only be given attention in the afternoon as I would need to work long hours for years before I could be financially stable enough to stay longer at home with him. He would also be all alone as the other birds are my sister’s. While I know some cockatoos can deal with this, Ricky still has plucking and anxiety with a steady amount of attention most of the day. I have been only thinking how sad he may get with the little amount of attention I will be able to give him. I feel so selfish believing that he would be happy with the future I have in front of me and I truly just want what is best for him. At the same time, I feel like I have failed him because I thought I could deal with all of this and I’m just giving up on him. I did bring him briefly up to my condo for a week, but I quickly had to bring him back home because my anxiety got so bad worrying over him. I’ve been struggling a lot with my mental health (dealing with my mom’s painful and inevitable death is weighing heavily on my entire family). And just thinking about caring for Ricky and trying to establish my career throughout all of this is driving me close to the edge.
I know this may seem like a lot and I feel like a villain, I just feel very lost right now in this situation and I think I really need some help. I have a bird rescue very close to where I live that I can contact (Free Flight Bird Sanctuary in Del Mar, California) and I am fully willing to work for months to find him a good home if the sanctuary can not take him. My family is completely willing to continue to pay for his care at the sanctuary (they require relinquishment fees) and any vet costs. I just want Ricky to be happy and have a more stable future than what is currently in front of him. What do you guys think is more cruel? Giving him to the rescue in hopes that he can find a stable home to live at or I take him after grad school (or even now) and we are both unhappy? I feel like a monster just for having the idea of rehoming him. Please help.
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