TextsFromParrots
Biking along the boulevard
Today m'lady and I went to the pet store. Mogwai has been weighing a lot on my mind lately. The more she acts up and seems to chase Morgan around to get her attention, the more I get worried. It's to the point that I fret every day and check her over to make sure she's eating, to make sure she looks alright. I know she's mourning her friend, but it hasn't gotten better, it just gets worse as she grows more neurotic. Along with that, I also know there's a hole in my life. I know Mogwai misses her friend, I know she loved Captain more then anything in the world. I want her happy again, I want her to have someone she can groom and snuggle up with. So over the past few weeks I've worked myself up in knots over it.
Today I was talking to m'lady about it. We went to the pet store and they had a few pure bred cats, one was stunning, but eh..purebreds aren't something I really crave. We love our local shop, they also take in rescues. Not from actually rescues, but strays and drop offs and the like. One of the kittens they had was a plain ordinary looking grey tabby, but something clicked. I don't know if it's just me searching for something in the hole in my life, or the fact he was leaping for me each time I opened the door and when I wasn't he was shoving his head against the cage trying to get at me. I finally broke down and found one of the ladies to ask about him. They had him turned over to them at four weeks old, he was bottle raised,vetted and healthy. Most of the kittens came from similar situations. I bit my lip and forced myself to walk away.
I need to think about it. The pros are Mogwai will have a distraction from her grief and possibly a new friend, the kitten will have a home where there's room for him, I'll have a tabby boy in my life again, when it's time for my two girls to pass on (they're within a year of each other) I'll still have him (which I realize is important, I don't know what I'd do without my two when Captain passed) and I'd have an animal I connect with.
The cons are Mogwai might hate him and could get MORE neurotic and I know one day he's going to break my heart. There's also the worry I'm starting the cycle of cats over again. Do I want to go through their passings over and over? Can I? Is it just the trauma of how Captain died or is it just that he's the first pet all my own that passed that's made me gun shy?
I'm so torn. I'm home now and thinking it over. On the one hand,I could go tomorrow and get him. I know he'd have a good home then and not fret that someone's unprepared kid could take him home to tug on his ears and chase him around. On the other hand i can wait a week and think more about it risking that he'd be adopted and I'd miss out on a cat I clicked with. Or I could not do it at all. He's not in a kill shelter, the people there are awesome...Gah sorry I'm rambling, I'm really trying to sort my own thoughts out here.
Today I was talking to m'lady about it. We went to the pet store and they had a few pure bred cats, one was stunning, but eh..purebreds aren't something I really crave. We love our local shop, they also take in rescues. Not from actually rescues, but strays and drop offs and the like. One of the kittens they had was a plain ordinary looking grey tabby, but something clicked. I don't know if it's just me searching for something in the hole in my life, or the fact he was leaping for me each time I opened the door and when I wasn't he was shoving his head against the cage trying to get at me. I finally broke down and found one of the ladies to ask about him. They had him turned over to them at four weeks old, he was bottle raised,vetted and healthy. Most of the kittens came from similar situations. I bit my lip and forced myself to walk away.
I need to think about it. The pros are Mogwai will have a distraction from her grief and possibly a new friend, the kitten will have a home where there's room for him, I'll have a tabby boy in my life again, when it's time for my two girls to pass on (they're within a year of each other) I'll still have him (which I realize is important, I don't know what I'd do without my two when Captain passed) and I'd have an animal I connect with.
The cons are Mogwai might hate him and could get MORE neurotic and I know one day he's going to break my heart. There's also the worry I'm starting the cycle of cats over again. Do I want to go through their passings over and over? Can I? Is it just the trauma of how Captain died or is it just that he's the first pet all my own that passed that's made me gun shy?
I'm so torn. I'm home now and thinking it over. On the one hand,I could go tomorrow and get him. I know he'd have a good home then and not fret that someone's unprepared kid could take him home to tug on his ears and chase him around. On the other hand i can wait a week and think more about it risking that he'd be adopted and I'd miss out on a cat I clicked with. Or I could not do it at all. He's not in a kill shelter, the people there are awesome...Gah sorry I'm rambling, I'm really trying to sort my own thoughts out here.