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Urgent - Abandoned Cockatiel- Sad Update- Post #111

T. gillii

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Rest in peace, sweet Maple. You gave her the kindest two weeks of her life and a soft place to land. Thank you.
 

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Hey guys

Tonight Maple passed. I am not sure why, she was doing so much better. Maybe she was just too bad off. I've been sobbing for 2 hours straight amd haven't even tried to write this yet. I hope shes up there eating millet happily and not nakey. I'm having a really hard time with this one. I dont knlw what I couldve done better and I'm so heavily blaming myself. I hate her last owner with ever bone in my body. I hope she knows she was loved even if it was for only 2 weeks.

I'm so sorry to hear that! :sadhug2:

Do not blame yourself!!! You went above and beyond for Maple, and gave her so much love and happiness in her last two weeks. She was so fortunate to have you loving her. She knows she was loved and safe.

Thank you so much for what you did for her, you changed her world for the better. :hug9:
 

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I don't know why this is so hard for me.
<< C’est le temps que tu as perdu pour ta rose qui fait ta rose si importante. >>
Antoine de Saint-Exupéry

It’s the time you spent on Maple that made her so important in your life & so missed when she flew over the bridge.
:sadhug2:

This heartbreak is your heart growing. You’ve given her a selfless last gift. Have courage & a hug!
 

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It hurts because you loved.

Do NOT blame yourself. You gave the gift of love and that was the best gift she could have ever had.

I know that sobbing path all too well but I take comfort that MC knew he was loved too.

We never have enough time with our feathered friends.
 

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I cried for hours last night, I cried on my way to work because she wasnt in my coming with me. I've cried in thr bathroom 4 different times and I've only been here 3 hours. I might ask to leave. I don't know why this is so hard for me.
The loss of every pet is hard in it's own way, but I think for rescues (especially in the extreme case with Maple) it's a unique sadness. You rescue a bird and get to show it a whole new life. There is a special anticipation for the firsts with a neglected rescue: first holiday season, first gotcha day, first touch... the list goes on. It seems especially unfair to end a story so soon before getting to the good part. It can feel crushing to feel that their total time on earth was mostly bad and the good times with you were so short in comparison. Two weeks with you WAS too short, and with how much progress she made in those two weeks I myself was looking forward to her future adventures.

But take heed that just from that sparkle in her eye that she knew she was loved and safe. And, I also believe the pets that have passed on send us the next friend that needs us when the time is right. The capacity to cry so many tears for a bird you knew for a short time only speaks to the strength of your heart, because it takes a strong heart to love deeply.

If it is any consolation, Maple is at least with the father that she missed so much.
 

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The picture of her happy sleepy face as she safely puts her foot away to sleep let's you know she knew she was safe and loved.
It's just too bad she didn't give you more time.
You did the right thing and she was showing you how great full she was for your love.
She didn't go alone in a cage outside so you did a good thing :sadhug:
 

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Her loss is just so heartbreaking because she was such a sweet innocent. Really, I'm in tears typing this because I'm so grateful to you. I'm so grateful that you gave that precious, sweet loving girl the life she really deserved all along--even for a few short weeks. I'm grateful she knew love, caring, and a safe and happy home. Thank you!
 

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I really really really appreciate everyone's kind words. I've really been beating myself up over this and you guys have helped quite a bit.
 

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I put her in my room across from Fish for him to see as he really enjoyed talking back with her and was tryinf to yesterday morning. I just wrapped her up to take her to work to get cremated. I've tried to avoid lookinf at her too much before right now and I'm sobbing again. My poor sweet girl.
 

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I put her in my room across from Fish for him to see as he really enjoyed talking back with her and was tryinf to yesterday morning. I just wrapped her up to take her to work to get cremated. I've tried to avoid lookinf at her too much before right now and I'm sobbing again. My poor sweet girl.
Shes sitting in my front seat like she used to even if it's not the same.

I need to leave and pick up my boyfriend so we cam bring my cat to get neutered but i cant stop sobbing in my parking lot with this crumpled little plastic bag next to me.
 

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:sadhug: So so sorry, I just don’t have the words to convey my deepest sorrow to you and your family. But I know in my heart, without a day doubt, that you did everything humanly possible for her.

Otherwise all I have are virtual hugs :sadhug:
 

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I get it.

I used to leave the house and walk and let the tears roll after MC passed away.

Every now and then it still hits.
 

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I am so sorry for your loss. Thank you for trying to help her. She passed where she was safe and warm and loved.
 
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