I literally cant with how much I love her and am obsessed. I was gonna write another post about how happy she is and fitting in so well, but I think i needed to get this out first

Ive been feeling really bad and guilty about Fish, it really hit me hard. I think River wasn't as long lasting and hard hitting grief because I knew how bad her health issues were, so subconsciously maybe I was preparing the years I had her. Maple as well even though I only knew her a couple weeks I loved her dearly and looked forward to the bird she wouldve became.
Fish hurt, and I am still most definitely grieving him months later. I've never felt that attached to a little bird, I never got the hype of GCCs and thought they were overrated before him. I was convinced River saved him that first time he got attacked as I found a feather of hers near his cage even though the only ones I have left of her are in the box with her ashes. He was my baby of the level Mel or Basil is even though I only had him maybe 6 or so months. I've felt so bad and felt like he would maybe thought I was replacing him but I think he sent her to me. He was so obsessed and in love with Maple for what little time he knew her and I think she reminded him a teeny bit and knew how hard it is to have a bird shaped hole in my home and heart. She is the sweetest, and I won't lie I am crying writing this, but she's perched on my hand being her little sweet self and preening while I'm laying down typing.
Anyway, I'm too superstitious, but,
All this to say, thank you Fishy I love you and Midge so much
P.S. she already loves vegetables so much, even though she dumped the bowl on my bed first!
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