TinySheep
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Tonight before getting ready for bed i went to go feed Soba a treat (dropped in his bowl)...
And he seemed to kinda waddle over to me! (It was at a distance, on a perch) I’m probably misreading this as progress because he may have just been trying to waddle in the opposite direction to where I was coming from.. but he stayed when I opened the cage door. I couldn’t see much due to the no eye contact thing, but I think he was kinda excited to see a treat was coming? He didn’t take as long as usual to do the sneaky sneak to The treat dish. He does this adorable slow approach and stop thing.. like he’s making sure I’m not watching.. it means he’s still nervous, but I think it’s still cute in a way.. >:0
misinterpretation or not, it still makes me happy about possible progress!!
Now, With my anxiety issues (yes.. not a good thing to have around a bird, I know, and I feel terrible about it, but I really thought that i had better control before I got him and that I had gotten better with this in general.) I found that it helps to redirect my attention to some needle felting videos while he’s eating outside the cage (on his open cage door on his treat bowl)They are both quiet and fun to watch.. Really stops the tension from excitement anxiety. He didn’t hang around there but he didn’t leave until he was finished the little chunk I gave him. Little butt even took the time to toss the twig thing from it out of the bowl and onto the floor when he was done >_>
I will be getting help with these anxiety issues but a bit of an explanation from me being too self-aware. I’ve been finding that literally anything can trigger anxiety for me. It doesn’t have to be constant thinking or worries or something scary. Literally anything. I can be excited about something but my body likes to make it confusing and turn it into a not so nice feeling, and makes everything all shaky for me (especially hands). As an example, This makes it especially hard for me to receive a gift and give the appropriate response (really hard for me to be happy? I’d be happy and grateful later but it’s like my brain kinda shuts off in the moment where I should be happy and grateful and excited, but I feel anything but that. And the response to that person is often forced... It feels fake to me?)
Nothing bad happened with me and Soba related to this issue other than a night fright episode where I temporarily forgot that he’s not tamed and that he doesn’t know me... and in my panic, I resorted to me talking softly to him and staring to make sure he’s okay which was an even a bigger scary to him (good information but for those with untamed birds that they just brought home... If they happen to have a night fright and you as a worried, scared sh*tless parront come to their rescue... Just turn on the lights. Don’t stare at them unless you notice he’s bleeding and severely injured and don’t talk, sing or whistle to them.. It’s scary for them, especially when they are already in panic mode and don’t know you as not a threat yet.)
Yikes, back to my anxiety issues I should mention that he does pick up on it sometimes when I approach the cage (sometimes my hands will shake when I go to open the door.. (I’m getting better at preventing it though), in which I’ll often take a step back to calm down a bit.. Which usually works but sometimes he’ll remain cautious and nervous when I try again.. Even though I’m no longer anxious. I hate my brain.. I’m not a child but this stuff makes me feel like it. It’s like I have no control over my own emotions sometimes.. I usually have positive emotions around animals, but it’s a bit different with soba? They are super positive around him but it’s like I feel both excited and slightly pressured?
I don’t have panic attacks. my anxiety is bad but not bad enough for everything to be uncontrollable. I can control my breathing to be normal breathing and I find that I can relax certain parts of my body if I focus hard enough. So other than shaky hands, my body language and movements are pretty calm. I try not to approach when I’m feeling this way though. Sometimes it flares when I’m halfway to the cage, in which I’ll stop and turn around and go do something else until it’s gone. It also likes to flare when changing food dishes, though the more I do it the less it’s happening.. I still feel terrible though.
So.. More embarrassing information about me. But some exciting information about soba! Also soba is around 9 months now! Still hoping and dreading a molt to come soon. I really hope he didn’t already have it yet... I want him to fly again
End of first progress report. <3
And he seemed to kinda waddle over to me! (It was at a distance, on a perch) I’m probably misreading this as progress because he may have just been trying to waddle in the opposite direction to where I was coming from.. but he stayed when I opened the cage door. I couldn’t see much due to the no eye contact thing, but I think he was kinda excited to see a treat was coming? He didn’t take as long as usual to do the sneaky sneak to The treat dish. He does this adorable slow approach and stop thing.. like he’s making sure I’m not watching.. it means he’s still nervous, but I think it’s still cute in a way.. >:0
misinterpretation or not, it still makes me happy about possible progress!!
Now, With my anxiety issues (yes.. not a good thing to have around a bird, I know, and I feel terrible about it, but I really thought that i had better control before I got him and that I had gotten better with this in general.) I found that it helps to redirect my attention to some needle felting videos while he’s eating outside the cage (on his open cage door on his treat bowl)They are both quiet and fun to watch.. Really stops the tension from excitement anxiety. He didn’t hang around there but he didn’t leave until he was finished the little chunk I gave him. Little butt even took the time to toss the twig thing from it out of the bowl and onto the floor when he was done >_>
I will be getting help with these anxiety issues but a bit of an explanation from me being too self-aware. I’ve been finding that literally anything can trigger anxiety for me. It doesn’t have to be constant thinking or worries or something scary. Literally anything. I can be excited about something but my body likes to make it confusing and turn it into a not so nice feeling, and makes everything all shaky for me (especially hands). As an example, This makes it especially hard for me to receive a gift and give the appropriate response (really hard for me to be happy? I’d be happy and grateful later but it’s like my brain kinda shuts off in the moment where I should be happy and grateful and excited, but I feel anything but that. And the response to that person is often forced... It feels fake to me?)
Nothing bad happened with me and Soba related to this issue other than a night fright episode where I temporarily forgot that he’s not tamed and that he doesn’t know me... and in my panic, I resorted to me talking softly to him and staring to make sure he’s okay which was an even a bigger scary to him (good information but for those with untamed birds that they just brought home... If they happen to have a night fright and you as a worried, scared sh*tless parront come to their rescue... Just turn on the lights. Don’t stare at them unless you notice he’s bleeding and severely injured and don’t talk, sing or whistle to them.. It’s scary for them, especially when they are already in panic mode and don’t know you as not a threat yet.)
Yikes, back to my anxiety issues I should mention that he does pick up on it sometimes when I approach the cage (sometimes my hands will shake when I go to open the door.. (I’m getting better at preventing it though), in which I’ll often take a step back to calm down a bit.. Which usually works but sometimes he’ll remain cautious and nervous when I try again.. Even though I’m no longer anxious. I hate my brain.. I’m not a child but this stuff makes me feel like it. It’s like I have no control over my own emotions sometimes.. I usually have positive emotions around animals, but it’s a bit different with soba? They are super positive around him but it’s like I feel both excited and slightly pressured?
I don’t have panic attacks. my anxiety is bad but not bad enough for everything to be uncontrollable. I can control my breathing to be normal breathing and I find that I can relax certain parts of my body if I focus hard enough. So other than shaky hands, my body language and movements are pretty calm. I try not to approach when I’m feeling this way though. Sometimes it flares when I’m halfway to the cage, in which I’ll stop and turn around and go do something else until it’s gone. It also likes to flare when changing food dishes, though the more I do it the less it’s happening.. I still feel terrible though.
So.. More embarrassing information about me. But some exciting information about soba! Also soba is around 9 months now! Still hoping and dreading a molt to come soon. I really hope he didn’t already have it yet... I want him to fly again
End of first progress report. <3
Any progress is good, no matter how small!
