rememberance

[Clown.C0ff]

I knocked over the blanket I had that covered albas box today by accident so I finally forced myself to open it, it'll be 7 months in December and this is the first time I opened it since she passed. Inside it contains all her toys, perches, stuff she last chewed on, her food that she was eating the last day, and the clothes I wore the last night we cuddled together and the moment I held her when she passed. All unwashed (gross I know) but I couldn't bring myself to wash them so I pit them away. As well as the last pillow case she napped on with me. I miss our naps, sharing food, taking pics together, basically everything. I hate that I'm slowly forgetting what it felt like to hold her and see her and hear her chirps. Whenever I think too hard about her it hurts so much. At the store I work at, the alarms chirping sounds like her and I can't help but look for her as if she was still here. I can't get another bird and go through this pain and anxiety again, but if I had the chance I'd do it all over again just to not make the same mistake of not realizing she swallowed what she chewed. I got a tarantula and snail now, and I got them so that I could have them (dream pet was always a tarantula) but I figured I wouldn't get as attached, however just the other day I was crying about them both because they're so cute and I love them so much. Just wanted to share, sorry for all the sad posts, I don't have a bird anymore so every post seems to be in highway to heaven now. Take care everyone

 

[Rebel]

That made me cry.

 

[Clown.C0ff]

 

[Synth]

I also have a bag of things. In it is everything from Hylia’s cage from when she passed. I also have the tote and towel I took her to the emergency vet in. I haven’t even removed the vets intake sticker with all her information even though the writing has mostly faded off. All of it is all unwashed. It sucks. They take a huge part of us when they go.

 

[Sarahmoluccan]

My heart goes out to you! I'm so sorry for your loss

 

[Clueless]

Totally understand how you feel (and it's been years since I lost MC).

 

[Kassiani]

Sending hugs! I'm so sorry the pain was made so fresh again.

 

[Clown.C0ff]

I also have a bag of things. In it is everything from Hylia’s cage from when she passed. I also have the tote and towel I took her to the emergency vet in. I haven’t even removed the vets intake sticker with all her information even though the writing has mostly faded off. All of it is all unwashed. It sucks. They take a huge part of us when they go.

I'm so sorry for your loss! grief is so interesting, some big things may nit even trigger it but then the small things that remind you of them here snd there do. I hope you're well and the holidays treat you well!

 

[Clown.C0ff]

My heart goes out to you! I'm so sorry for your loss

thank you

 

[Aestatis]

The holidays are always tough. I definitely understand what you mean about the sadness of forgetting what she sounds or feels like. I guess it's a mixed bag - if you have videos you can always listen to them, but it might hurt to refresh the memory. It's also sad to forget that feeling of a cuddly cockatiel since they is nothing else like it. It's also normal to be scared for your other pets after a death or a serious health scare. It just shows how much love you have for your animals.

Birds or not, feel free to stick around. I hope you find solace here. Are you still going to do Alba's stocking? if so, I think people would love to see it in the future.

 

[MelodySong]

I'm sorry for your loss. I have decided to do the same with the stuff I've kept from my late parakeet, Melody, mainly her perches and a toy or two. I almost didn't wash the clothing I wore from the last few days she was alive.
Yesterday I had taken her cage out to the garbage after a month; it made me sad but glad because it was her original cage from whomever her owner prior was. (I got her from someone on craigslist.)

It's a sweet and touching way to honor your bird, the fact you kept all these things. Grieving isn't a timed process; you take things at your own pace when you feel ready to. Your bird was clearly loved and she knows that from the way you honor her even after death. Be kind to yourself, your emotions are understandable, and remember; she will always be with you.