Leyna passed away peacefully in my arms last night. I was able to hold her and whisper everything that I wanted to say before and during her passing. My wonderful son came to support me. I agonized over whether or not I was making the right decision, knowing there were palliative options available that would have sustained her life a bit longer. But deep down I knew it was time, and that she needed to pass with dignity and with minimal suffering.
The minutes prior to giving them the go ahead to release her was agonizing. She kept looking at me as if she knew, and it tore me apart.
I couldn't have asked for a better vet, one that I actually hadn't met until last night, as her regular vet wasn't available. But she was the perfect person to gently guide, answer questions and compassionately support Leyna, my son and me.
I miss my beautiful grey muzzled girl so much. I miss the feel of her fur, her sounds, her smell. She was my girl, always by my side, protecting, loving and keeping watch over me. My life was made better because of her presence in it. Now I must learn to live life without my baby girl. My heart is broken.
Thank you, everyone, for your loving support. You are helping me grieve and to know I truly did right by her. From the bottom of my heart, thank you.