What a beautiful story, so touching. I think you put into words what we are all going to feel, or have already felt, when its time to bye to our beautiful birdy babies. You loved him, he loved you, just remember that and nobody can take away from you what you two shared. If you do get another bird (or a different kind of companion pet) one day, you will love that one too, differently to your love for Samson, but you will love again. Stay strong, remember Samson with love and happiness. I know you miss him, but he would not want you to be miserable. Didnt he always do things to make you laugh, get your attention, sit quietly with you contemplating life, supporting you through the tough times, being a mischief maker, not eating his veggies, wrecking his toys, pooing on furniture? Honour him, remember him with love and laughter, he sounded like a real character.