It’s hard, I know. I try so hard to remember my Kiwi and Sparky, and only some memories are clear, the rest have gone fuzzy. But the moment I realised Kiwi was dead, that memory is embedded firmly in my head, and I fear it’ll never leave my. My scream still haunts me. We all miss them when they leave us. Just take care of yourself, and remember to allow yourself to grieve.