@Brittany0208 I'm sorry I've had some crazy family stuff going on unexpectedly & haven't been on a whole bunch. Your a great parront & although there are a few AA members that would spoil poor Java to the high hills, I'm not sure anyone could love him more than you. It's expected to feel anxious & some depression when our fids are sick. Try not to pay too much focus on these things. I can tell you the more I focus on mine the worse it gets. I can
cause myself to have an anxiety attack because I focused on it. My suggestion is instead take 20 minutes for you. Go outside & sit on the porch or go for a short walk. I have been trying to do that every day even if it's for five or ten minutes. Buddy's healthy but my daughter has been having issues. It's been helping me not only stay patient with Buddy's tantrums due to hormones but focus in & be clear for my daughter's bad ideas & help her (guide) towards better ones. Java can only be as strong as he see you be. I know it's tough but I KNOW you have that inner strength, you've shown us this many times on AA over the last few years. You have this honey, & we all have
YOU!