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Heartbroken without her

arayabd

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Hi all,

On April 19 my beloved lovebird Azulé passed away. She had an egg binding and I took her to vet as soon as I saw the egg stuck, I'm not sure what happened after but when the vet gave her back to me she was very quiet and lethargic. The next day she was a little more chipper but after feeding her her medicine she became lethargic again, ultimately passing away around 8 PM. I sat with her all day on her final day, I really did not think she was going to pass. I still feel horrible for letting her down.

She looked so weak and tired, she kept falling asleep and seemed to be in so much pain even after I fed her the anti-inflammatory. She was refusing to eat even though I kept leaving seeds near her gently. Even though she was weak all day, she would still rush to nibble my finger or come lay on my neck and cuddle up. I left her for one moment to grab a book to read to her, and she passed. I think she was waiting for me to leave the room so I wouldn't have to see.

I know it's been over a month but I still miss her everyday. Although I do have a canary, nothing will fill the void. Has anyone else experienced such heartbreak? I still cry when I think about her and feel so empty without her.
 

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I'm sorry she left you like that but she knew she was safe and loved to the end and maybe she did like you said and waited to leave. I lost Nerd bird after 31 years together and it was devastating but I knew he was happy and loved me. He left sitting on my left wrist looking up at me through his closed eyes.
I think many of us have lost our heart birds and it tears a hole in your heart every time so we know what your going through. You just have to give it time and you'll eventually be able to think more of all the good times. :sadhug:
 

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I am very sorry to hear of your loss :sorrow:
 

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I´m deeply sorry for you loss. I´m so sorry you have lost your friend. :sadhug:
 

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I'm so sorry for your loss. It's so hard when they leave us.
 

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I’m so very sorry for your loss.
:sadhug2:
 

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I'm so sorry...I'm an older gal and when Hachi passed, it took about two years before I stopped crying. I can finally watch memories and remember her without a breakdown.
 

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I'm so very sorry for your loss.
 

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I am sorry for your loss.
 

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I'm so sorry honey, some of mine passed in my arms, some passed after I had to leave for work,,I think its their decision ..:sadhug2:
 

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I am so very sorry for your loss fly free little one
 

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I'm so so sorry for your loss.

But I'm also happy for the memories you've created with her.
Happy might not be the best word for it - but I hope you understand what I mean.

I lost my budgie 7 years ago (not due death but likely due an accident when I was not at home where he escaped, never found him back) and it still hurts.
 

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I am sorry for your loss. :( having experienced loss in March and May this year I understand the raw pain you are in. They leave a hole in your heart that is difficult to fill. Just take time and try to focus on all of the good memories you have with her. She loved you, and in turn knew how much you loved her. :sadhug2: :heart::heart:
 

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I am so sorry for your loss and I understand how you feel. I lost my Bella due to a stroke almost a month ago and my heart aches for her every day.
 

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So sorry for your loss.
 

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I am sorry for your loss. I know how you feel. We lost our chickster to a tragic accident and she has been gone 5 months and we still grieve. We can't at this time enjoy the company of another bird while we have our 5 dogs. She should be outside today in her cage enjoying the sunshine and birds. :( Your heart will take time to heal but you will always remember with love and fondness the joy she brought you. I know we do.
 

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Truly sorry for your loss. There is no time limit on grief. How many times I've had people say to me, "Are you still crying about that dog?" Or bird, or cat or horse or hamster or guinea pig, or whatever companion, family member, loved one, had passed. Never be ashamed to answer, Yes, I am still grieving over that beloved friend. Feel sorry for them that have never known the love of another being.
 
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