dessa.meeh
Sitting on the front steps
- Joined
- 4/16/22
- Messages
- 19
I lost my sweet baby, Kiwi, yesterday. She was only 22, so young for an Amazon. It was so sudden and I can't stop crying. I miss her so so much.
I'm never going to hear her whistle, laugh, or talk to me anymore. I'd do anything to have her back, just to have her sit on my knee one more time, to have to her come over and beg for some cheese, I'd even let her do her best to bite my finger off if it meant having her around to say goodbye.
She died at the vet's office, surrounded by strangers. She was alone, confused, and scared. I regret that so much, I regret not fighting to go in with her. I expected her to come back with me that night, I expected the vet to find out what was wrong and help her. Instead, I buried her.
They think she had a stroke. They said there was nothing I could do but God I wish I had done things differently. I wish I had given you a treat. I wish I had given you pets one last time, I wish I had done so much more for you. I'm sorry I didn't. And now I feel so so lost.
Kiwi, I love you. I know you're in a better place now, without pain or fear or confusion. I know Grandpa is giving you all the almonds you could eat. I love you so much baby girl. I hope you know that. I hope to see you in my dreams.
I'm never going to hear her whistle, laugh, or talk to me anymore. I'd do anything to have her back, just to have her sit on my knee one more time, to have to her come over and beg for some cheese, I'd even let her do her best to bite my finger off if it meant having her around to say goodbye.
She died at the vet's office, surrounded by strangers. She was alone, confused, and scared. I regret that so much, I regret not fighting to go in with her. I expected her to come back with me that night, I expected the vet to find out what was wrong and help her. Instead, I buried her.
They think she had a stroke. They said there was nothing I could do but God I wish I had done things differently. I wish I had given you a treat. I wish I had given you pets one last time, I wish I had done so much more for you. I'm sorry I didn't. And now I feel so so lost.
Kiwi, I love you. I know you're in a better place now, without pain or fear or confusion. I know Grandpa is giving you all the almonds you could eat. I love you so much baby girl. I hope you know that. I hope to see you in my dreams.