Thank you for all your kind words,I just wanted to say that I'm back, and going to work a little harder on making Aro happy. As I think I've stated before, I have bpd which sometimes causes me to act impulsively and have moments where I just feel like everything I do..isn't great. I feel like it, mixed with noticing that they were just normal conure sounds and I was overreacting, made me feel like I was doing bad, and that I had to be a bad person for not feeling so good about it. It isn't any of your guy's fault, just my own brain connecting dots that weren't there. But I feel better now. Taking a deep breath and reflecting helped me so much. I am going to try harder at understanding Aro, and not immediately assuming that something is wrong just because he's doing something new. I'm sure if something is genuinely bothering him, it will be easier for me to see.
But It's just the noise that is bothering me. And as I've discovered (and was mentioned previously), wearing headphones actually reduces the noise enough that it makes the sounds completely tolerable to me. He isn't a problem. He's just being a bird, and as I've noticed in myself, having him around has GREATLY improved me,my mental health, and my physical health. He makes me feel like life is okay. It's only fair for me to share that feeling with him, and make sure his life is great too. Even if it gets challenging, I know that we can do it. No matter what, he is worth it. I'm a bit scared for when he /actually/ screams..Buut that's for later me to figure out. And I'm sure if I do my best to keep him as happy as he can be, he won't need to do that often.
That being said, I am SO sorry for my overreaction. I am sorry for being so dramatic, it won't happen again. I can't apologize enough for worrying you guys, I spoke to my boyfriend and best friend, and came to an agreement that before I make such a quick choice again and sabotage my changes of getting help from nice people, I will talk to one of them first. It was my first time struggling with my bpd's impulsivness since I got Aro, and a rash decision that I regret, and won't let happen again. I'm going to work hard on improving myself so that it won't happen again, and that he can feel safe in the knowledge that he has a home, for as long as he wants to be here. Thank you all so much for being so kind to me. If it wasn't for my best friend reading out the kind messages you posted, I likely would've just stayed away out of embarrassment. You are all wonderful people, and I thank you so much for your kindness. <3
Thank you, again. I really hope that in times of hardness with you, or your birds, I can provide the help that you have given me. <3 This forum really is one of the kindest places I've been bird wise, and I will never stop being thankful that I joined it.
