dessa.meeh
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Almost 6 months to the day since Kiwi passed and our family experienced another tragedy. Freedom, my beautiful green cheek conure passed away yesterday morning. She was my first bird, we got her as a baby and she grew up with me from 3rd grade until now. 18 years together. She was older but should have lived so much longer.
I should have been watching. Freedom and my Amazon, Ricky, were on the couch together. I left to grab a cup of tea, gone no longer than a minute and something I had done many times before. In that time they got into a fight. Freedom ended up with a broken wing and open wounds. We took her to the vet who stitched her up and wrapped her wing. She did wonderful under anesthesia, my little fighter. Making her displeasure known loud enough that I could hear her outside. The vet was very optimistic and we had an appointment for next week to get her wrap changed.
That night was restless. She was still getting used to her bandage and hated every second of it. She was in pain even with the meds. In the middle of the night, I prayed for God to take her pain away and in that moment, I knew she wouldn't make it. She passed away in the early hours of the morning with me sleeping right next to her. She was covered so she could have a dark place to rest but I wish she had been able to see me next to her, to know she wasn't alone.
We buried her next to Kiwi so they can pester each other over the Rainbow Bridge just like they did here on Earth.
God, I miss her so much. I feel so guilty, if I had just been there and stopped them from getting into a fight, she would still be here, being her sassy little self. I knew better. I knew not to leave them alone, I should have been there. Freedom paid the price for my negligence.
This year has been so hard, I don't know how much more my family can take, how much more I can take. I am terrified of losing someone else. I would do anything to have her back, to have both Kiwi and Freedom back.
Freedom, my little sassafrass, I'm so sorry. I'm sorry I wasn't there, I'm sorry that you don't get to experience more time here, I'm sorry that you were in pain. I love you so much my baby girl. I miss your chirps, I miss your cuddles. I even miss your surprisingly sharp nips when you didn't get your way. I miss you nesting in my unbrushed hair. I miss you playing hide and seek when you didn't want to go back into your cage. I miss your antics. I miss you flying and landing on my head. I miss you showing that you were top bird, even though you were by far the smallest. I miss you falling asleep on my arm when I'm in a meeting. I miss you.
I love you so much Freedom. Please visit me in my dreams. Find Kiwi and have her show you around. Don't be too much of a pest to her, ok? I'm sure you'll be ruling the heavenly roost in no time, if you aren't already. Mommy and Derek miss you so so much.
Thank you so much for choosing me to be your mom. I love you.
I should have been watching. Freedom and my Amazon, Ricky, were on the couch together. I left to grab a cup of tea, gone no longer than a minute and something I had done many times before. In that time they got into a fight. Freedom ended up with a broken wing and open wounds. We took her to the vet who stitched her up and wrapped her wing. She did wonderful under anesthesia, my little fighter. Making her displeasure known loud enough that I could hear her outside. The vet was very optimistic and we had an appointment for next week to get her wrap changed.
That night was restless. She was still getting used to her bandage and hated every second of it. She was in pain even with the meds. In the middle of the night, I prayed for God to take her pain away and in that moment, I knew she wouldn't make it. She passed away in the early hours of the morning with me sleeping right next to her. She was covered so she could have a dark place to rest but I wish she had been able to see me next to her, to know she wasn't alone.
We buried her next to Kiwi so they can pester each other over the Rainbow Bridge just like they did here on Earth.
God, I miss her so much. I feel so guilty, if I had just been there and stopped them from getting into a fight, she would still be here, being her sassy little self. I knew better. I knew not to leave them alone, I should have been there. Freedom paid the price for my negligence.
This year has been so hard, I don't know how much more my family can take, how much more I can take. I am terrified of losing someone else. I would do anything to have her back, to have both Kiwi and Freedom back.
Freedom, my little sassafrass, I'm so sorry. I'm sorry I wasn't there, I'm sorry that you don't get to experience more time here, I'm sorry that you were in pain. I love you so much my baby girl. I miss your chirps, I miss your cuddles. I even miss your surprisingly sharp nips when you didn't get your way. I miss you nesting in my unbrushed hair. I miss you playing hide and seek when you didn't want to go back into your cage. I miss your antics. I miss you flying and landing on my head. I miss you showing that you were top bird, even though you were by far the smallest. I miss you falling asleep on my arm when I'm in a meeting. I miss you.
I love you so much Freedom. Please visit me in my dreams. Find Kiwi and have her show you around. Don't be too much of a pest to her, ok? I'm sure you'll be ruling the heavenly roost in no time, if you aren't already. Mommy and Derek miss you so so much.
Thank you so much for choosing me to be your mom. I love you.
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