Bucky

[Respect]

My mom is taking her to the vet now. She won’t be back. I don’t think I could take going with her. All over the house there are reminders of her. She lived here with us. I can’t stop crying. My heart hurts so bad. I miss you so much baby, even though I just said goodbye

 

[Rebel]

I went in for the first time ever to have one of our cats put to sleep. It was very sad but i felt it important to be with him.

 

[Mizzely]

I'm so sorry. I lost my kitty Jasmine in 2018 and I still miss her terribly

 

[Alien J]

It's so hard, isn't it? As I type this I'm looking at my Dusty. In the last 6 months he's gone completely deaf and is just about completely blind. He sleeps almost 24/7. But when he is up, he's still boinging and doing his patrol (albeit a much shorter version) and seems happy and not in too much pain. It won't be much longer though.

I'm truly sorry for your loss.

 

[Respect]

Every time I get up it feels wrong. She’s not there rubbing against my legs. She’s not sleeping next to me. Her stuff is everywhere, but she’s nowhere to be found. She’s not in her favorite spots. Just gone.

On one hand, it’s a massive weight off of my shoulders. No more cleaning up vomit every other day. No more worrying about her health. No more allergies. No more struggling to give her pills. No more cleaning litterboxes. One less set of dishes to wash. One less mouth to feed. One less set of vet bills to pay for.

On the other hand, my baby’s gone. No more falling asleep listening to her purr. No more waking up in the middle of the night and petting her for reassurance. No more holding her and crying on her. No more cuddles with her. No more watching her fall asleep on my gramdma. No more giving her treats. No more stampeding to the feeder when it’s meal time. No more wide eyes and begging when I say “yumyum”. No more crinkling sounds from her sitting on her play mats. No more giving her crumpled up old receipts and playing fetch. No more having someone to keep me company in the middle of the night.

I’m so tired, but I can’t sleep. It’s so lonely to be the only one awake.

 

[Emma&pico]

I am so sorry

 

[sunnysmom]

So sorry.

 

[rocky'smom]

so sorry

 

[Respect]

I just put all of her stuff into another room. It made me really sad to look at. Now it feels empty, but also like a new beginning. Still going to be crying for days, though.

If (when) I get another cat, I want to start fresh. I’m sure there’s of new information on how to best care for cats. It’ll probably be similar to how I prepared for Buddy, lots of research and buying new supplies a little at a time. Insurance is going to be a must this time, too. I’m sure a lot of the changes I implemented for Buddy could also improve a cat’s life. It’ll take a while.

In the meantime, I need to take care of Buddy and myself. I feel so bad for him, he’s been in his cage almost all day yesterday and today. I don’t have the energy to let him out and keep him out of trouble yet; but at least he’s been getting lots of millet and nutriberries. And lots of shouting “peekaboo” back and forth.

My mom is also finally willing to help me get accident & illness insurance for Buddy. (Verbal communication and trying to understand people over the phone isn’t my strong suit; and I also don’t know the first thing about insurance!)

Once I can be sure Bucky’s bills are all paid off, I’ll buy Buddy a new cage and perches too. And I’ll take some much needed time to relax and recover.

Thanks for letting me vent and write out my feelings here.

 

[Sparkles99]

It’s never easy.

 

[Sarahmoluccan]

I'm so sorry for your loss

It’s never easy.

So true

 

[conurehrdr]

Many Many HUGS from my fids to yours.

 

[JAavian]

I'm sorry for your loss

 

[zoo mom]

Sorry for your loss.

 

[Alien J]

Hang in there. Good times, and joy, will be coming around again.