I'm sorry for all the turmoil you've had recently, and very sorry for you're loss.
You fought hard for your all fish, especially Van, and I was hoping all they'd finally turned the corner.
It isn't silly to be heartbroken when some
one you loved, and worked so hard to save, passes on. Silly are the people who can't recognize that love, dedication, and heartbreak isn't just reserved for their personal favorite animals or humans.