Hi everyone. Today is only the third day I have had Tiki my adopted CBC. He is 4.5 months old. I really need your help. I have an anxiety disorder and getting him has triggered me to have constant anxiety and panic attacks. I didn’t think this would happen but it has. My boyfriend doesn’t understand. He says “I thought a bird would make you happy since you wanted one for so long”. And it should, he’s right. Instead I’m terrified that everything I’m doing is wrong, and people will be right about me. I hear in my head “You don’t know what you are doing” “ You know birds are hard work” “Birds aren’t domesticated and take a long time to get adjusted”. You name it, I’ve heard it. I’m watching videos and reading but people all have different opinions on if I should even take him out of his cage right now. I’m trying to watch bird behavior because I don’t understand what he is trying to tell me. I need your help! I’m crying right now typing this. I want to be a good parront so bad! What I have been doing: Take a shower, get myself ready for work. Walk in the bird room and say Good morning Tiki! How are you? I raise the blinds and open his cage. Then I ask do you want to step up? He bites my finger and pulls himself up. I take him into the kitchen on his stand and continue getting ready. I make myself breakfast and give him his and try to eat with him. I can’t tell if he’s eating with me or just holding it in his beak and dropping it. He is very vocal. I ask him often if he wants scratches and leave my finger there. He usually bites me and makes noise. He’s not hurting me but I feel like I’m getting mixed messages. Does he want the scratches or does he want me to leave? When I try to put him down he acts like he doesn’t want to leave my finger. He makes noises the whole time and I’m not sure if they are good or bad. I put him in his cage when I have to leave and have fresh food and water. He acts like he doesn’t want to go in. Sunflower seeds don’t help. I get him in and tell him I will be back. I shut the door and he calls for me, then I leave. When I get home it’s really the same thing. I am trying to understand him. Always have toys for him. Last night he was trying to fly (his wings are clipped) and did lots of fluttering everywhere. I had the Java tree right next to my bed watching tv and he fluttered onto the bed. Then on the bed he ignored all the toys and was biting my shirt, towel and hands. He was laying flat and moving around. He kept scrunching up to my neck and nibbling me all over. I tried giving him scratches and he made a lot of noise and bites. However my boyfriend said his eyes were closed and he looked like he was enjoying it? Sometimes he looks like he’s shaking. I’ve seen him stretch his wing and foot. I’ve seen him fluff up his feathers a bit. I’ve seen him flutter his wings. Also hang off the side of his cage and stare at me, following me around the room. Please help me. I don’t want to mess up and be a terrible bird owner! I know birds bite but I can’t tell what he’s trying to tell me! How do I post a video? Maybe you could help me and see what Tiki is trying to tell me? Sorry for the long post.