Hi Chrissie,
How are you doing with your new parrot? I hope you are feeling better. It's been 2 months and I thought I was getting better, but now I find myself back at square one thinking of everything. I read the post on the pillow fight and that's exactly what it looked like at our house. Plus my wife told me she thought chickster fought back based on what found throughout the kitchen and living room. She couldn't get away. We can't get another bird. I just want this to stop.
Hello Clothdog.
My new little parrot,Tink, is getting on fine...he is very happy and now growing some orange feathers on his chest. I am glad that I got him and he does keep me occupied.
However, 4 months after losing Mr Jingles I can't say that I feel any better. After 2 months I went back to feeling how I did when it first happened....terrible. I actually had to get medication from my doctor. He said that the way that Jingles went had traumatised me. The medication has stopped me crying so much but I still have that neverending sadness deep down and when I wake in the morning it continues to hit me. I still miss him immensely and the thoughts of his end still haunt me.
I have put photos of him in an album but I still haven't managed to put a photo on the wall...hopefully I will in time. I wrote down every single thing about him, what he used to say, his funny little antics etc, and that helped.
I continue to Google, albeit not so often, on how long he may have suffered. It sounds morbid but it is what is stopping me moving on. I did find out that birds adrenaline rises so high in an unexpected, sudden shock that they can pass on almost immediately. Even though Chickster and Jingles died in this horrible way, I still hold on to the fact that it was likely that their hearts stopped quickly and anything after that they were oblivious to.
I am so sorry that you are going through this nightmare. I think of you both often. The fact that we had these special friends in our lives makes it so, so hard to get used to them not being here. I try my best to hold on to the thought that their end took seconds and that they had years and years of happiness with us. Hence why they are embedded in our hearts and live on in our memories. I am hoping that time will help us both. Feel free at any time to talk if you need to.